3 weeks left! heres a tiny parcel of whats going through my mind
on the one hand, i am ready to leave. i feel like ive grown out of the “exchange student” role, meaning, i feel like i fit in to the culture now more than i stand out. i get annoyed sometimes of living with a danish family and relying on other people when its so more natural to just be living on my own and being with danish friends. my way of life now is so independent i dont need to rely on others for help in the language, culture, or way of life and i find myself so easily navigating on my own. so i rather be here on my own most times than as an exchange student, it will be great to come back and experience that.
on the other hand, its so very hard to part with things that will never be the same.my two best friends, charlotte and hermione, for example, will be leaving too and we might never be together in denmark again. i can of course visit them, but its not quite the same. after being together day after day for months on end, its so strange that the three of us will now be taking to three seperate continents!
also, no matter how many times i go back and visit my gymnasium,i will never again be a student there, and when i think about that i just want to cry. my school has been the best part of this experience, and probably the number one reason i fell in love with denmark. its just been incredible, i have so much to tell on that. and it breaks my heart to know i’ll never have that again, and to leave my class behind, even when i see them all again soon, i wont be their “classmate” anymore.
through it all im trying to always stay positive and think about new doors being opened in this journey of life! so much has happened in this year and just think what can happen in the years ahead!
one of those 4AM strokes of genius. i swear its the best time to paint.